1. 16:08 29th Apr 2013

    Notes: 4

    Tags: being a grown up is hard

    cause and effect

    for a thirty-one-and-a-half-year-old woman, i have an astoundingly limited capability for internalizing the ramifications of some of the choices i make.

    it’s kind of a remarkable skill, actually, the degree to which i can seemingly willfully ignore what i should very obviously understand to be the results of a series of quite ordinary actions.

    and so it was with some actual shock, and not a small bit of delight, that i thought to myself this afternoon, “self. you’re really tired. i think it is perhaps because you went to bed LATE last night.”

    fingers crossed this train of rational thought carries me all the way through to making a better decision at bedtime this evening.

     

  2. 16:10 19th Apr 2013

    Notes: 5380

    Reblogged from thekimenator

    Click a few dots, and this program will try to guess your age.

    thekimenator:

    It’s part of an experiment to analyze how motor control changes with age. It nearly guessed my age [ 29- my birthday is next month].

    What about you? via jtotheizzoe:

    i’m 31. it predicted me as 29. too bad nobody ever says, “your motor control looks good for your age.”

     

  3. 16:01 15th Apr 2013

    Notes: 9

    image: Download

    none of the parents of these children are blondes and yet somehow three brunettes and a ginger created these blonde beauties (jury is actually still out on my little one - maybe i get a redhead after all?). we got together with some of our favorite people this weekend to meet the (not pictured) third child of our dear friends nick & kathren. the (older) children had a blast and made beautiful music together. the kids are perfectly spaced - caraline, almost 4; harley, almost 3.5; will, 2.5; delilah, 15 months - and played SO nicely together. and when it was time to go, that handsome little gentleman in the front told me he didn’t want me to go and he loved me. winning weekend.

    none of the parents of these children are blondes and yet somehow three brunettes and a ginger created these blonde beauties (jury is actually still out on my little one - maybe i get a redhead after all?).

    we got together with some of our favorite people this weekend to meet the (not pictured) third child of our dear friends nick & kathren. the (older) children had a blast and made beautiful music together. the kids are perfectly spaced - caraline, almost 4; harley, almost 3.5; will, 2.5; delilah, 15 months - and played SO nicely together. and when it was time to go, that handsome little gentleman in the front told me he didn’t want me to go and he loved me.

    winning weekend.

     

  4. 14:30

    Notes: 24

    Reblogged from scenes-from-my-hood

    important.

    via scenes-from-my-hood

     

  5. 19:27 11th Apr 2013

    Notes: 7

    Tags: i hate everything

    i’m still in the office

    banging my head against a wall trying to get a report out with missing information and OF COURSE the only person who can answer my question is on the other side of the world.

     

  6. 14:46 5th Apr 2013

    Notes: 8

    Tags: wait don't go i also had this really cool dream last night

    cheap thrills

    i get a little (too) excited when the 2 soups being served in the work cafeteria both sound good to me, and seem like flavors that would work together, and then i combine them in one cup* and it’s DELICIOUS and i declare myself a goddamn culinary genius.

    i know no one cares what you had for lunch, but i really felt you needed to know this about me.

    *today it was potato leek and french moroccan lentil. BAM. [sorry emeril.]

    **i probably need to get a life.

     

  7. 13:56 4th Apr 2013

    Notes: 9

    you can go ahead and scoff (and really, you probably should, this is no high brow music selection here) (though you should also know that i sincerely and so unapologetically love cheesy country music) but hearing this song last night… well, i can’t say if it was anything about the song, or just natural timing, but i finally felt myself

    exhale.

    i’ve been feeling like my life lately is being pulled so taut, and i’m just going to snap. i can’t fit one more thought into my head, one more plan into my routine, i’m barely doing anything at 100% anymore…

    i’ve been beating myself up a LOT.

    and what suddenly hit me last night is i’m feeling way too sorry for myself.

    so i had a good cry. and a DEEP BREATH. and i’m starting fresh.

    i got home last night at 7.

    most days i’d look at the clock and already feel despondent. it’s too late to really start a healthy dinner with nothing much planned/prepped, guess it’ll be mac&cheese again. the girls are going to be up late, our night is going to be a disaster, everything is terrible, look how messy the kitchen is, harley doesn’t even have a single* clean sock in her drawer.

    instead, while greg spent some time winding down with the kids and getting them ready for bed, i cut up chicken in small, will-cook-quickly pieces, then opened the freezer and spotted TJ’s 3-minute brown rice and some half-empty bags of frozen corn & peas.

    a stir fry. that came together quickly and easily and most important mindlessly while i watched the children play in the next room.

    they were not in bed early.  but they were fed a healthy, home-cooked meal, made entirely by me, we ate dinner together (a novelty) and they went too bed…

    and since i was done feeling sorry for myself, i didn’t sink into the couch…

    i cleaned up the kitchen, put on a load of laundry, and went through the mail.

    this is not groundbreaking stuff. this is what needs to happen on a normal night to make a household run. but i’ve been so fogged in with my frustrations that i let that be the reason i was feeling so behind.

    i can do this, it won’t all be perfect but it WILL most definitely be fine.

    *i’m not even joking with you when i tell you she wore mismatched orphan socks to school on wednesday.**

    **this was entirely her doing. there was clean laundry, i just hadn’t put it away in her room yet. i offered to get her an actual pair of socks from the laundry room but she was rather amused with her selection.

    [eta: wow jodee messina kind of has a scary face and that is a bizarrely large photo. sorry everyone.]

    (Source: Spotify)

     

  8. 16:46 3rd Apr 2013

    Notes: 8

    image: Download

    scene in the board room when this product was suggested: “balancing on a balance ball is too hard. let’s add some legs and a back so that it’s easier.” “isn’t that just …a chair?” “you’re fired.”

    scene in the board room when this product was suggested:

    “balancing on a balance ball is too hard. let’s add some legs and a back so that it’s easier.”

    “isn’t that just …a chair?”

    “you’re fired.”

     

  9. 11:34

    Notes: 13

    image: Download

    headset!! making conference calls easier and 100% dorkier since two minutes ago.

    headset!!

    making conference calls easier and 100% dorkier since two minutes ago.

     

  10. 10:39

    Notes: 6

    Tags: no shopping 2013

    how’s that resolution going?

    (asked nobody at all. but whatever.)

    month 1, as reported, was a legitimate success.

    month 2, broke down already and bought a few items for the girls but only in larger/future sizes after finding myself in a carter’s store w/ a store credit from some returns, and an absurd sale going on (everything BO-GO-50%-off).

    month 3, caved again as far as shopping-for-the-kids was concerned, when i mistakenly logged into zulily after a (very wise) months-long hiatus. oops. stocked up on some summer dresses that H will wear this year and D will wear 2 yrs later, and i swear i’m done shopping for them for a WHILE now. i also bought myself a new pair of pumps for that job interview (damn).

    month 4, get back on track, hopefully!! should help that the change of season naturally refreshes my wardrobe options b/c i currently am sick of everything.